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Ang tagal kong walang hindi nagpopost, ano? Well, to say that I am busy is an understatement. Ngayon, 2nd year 2nd sem…masasabi kong ngarag ako. Pero next academic year, masasabi kong--- mawawalan na ako ng buhay! Marami akong news na hindi nakwento--- rather, naisulat, at marami pa rin akong ipinangakong ipopost dito na hindi ko pa nagagawa…don’t worry, meron pa akong 1 buong linggo para magsulat at magpahinga.
21 units of acads.
More or less 9 units of Broadguild.
3 units of LCCG.
24 units of family matters.
Sum it all up--- KANGARAGAN= Diane Isabele Padilla Maling.
Hmm…teka…wala nang natirang units for socialization?
E siguro 1 unit ang allotted per subject matter (acads, BG, family and LCCG) ‘yun. A total of 4 units of socialization (gimiks, telebabad, chat, etc.) Syempre all work and no play…not so very me! But--- I have to constantly remind myself na 4 units lang ‘yun at hindi kasama sa aking priorities this AY.
Pero--- wait…paano ang lovelife? I must admit na it is again, ehem, not so very Diane Isabele kapag walang lovelife.
Hay…lovelife, I guess, has to wait. Kumbaga sa enlistment/enrollment, hindi s’ya freshie o graduating para mailagay sa priority list. Disiplina lang ‘yan e. Alam ko kasi na kapag nag-allot ako ng units for it, kakainin niya ang focus ko for other important things, at hindi ko pa kayang I-work out ang attitude ko na ‘yon towards lovelife. Lovelife also requires quite a high rate of emotional involvement…therefore increasing the possibility of emotional risk…which, if not managed properly, can cause damage sa aking buhay. So there. Main point: lovelife=X!
Hindi ko nakikita na I am depriving myself of happiness. All these endeavors that I’m focusing on, and will be focusing on, are the things that I want and I chose. Brutally speaking, wala akong karapatang magreklamo dahil pinili ko ‘to. Pero ‘yun nga, hindi ko naman pagaaksayahan ng panahon at effort kung hindi ko mahal at kung hindi ko gusto ‘yung bagay na ‘yun. At para sa akin (siguro para na rin sa iba), mas mahalaga ang family, acads, church at org (isama na ang friends) kesa sa pagkakaroon ng boyfriend.
Besides--- yung gusto ko namang I-boyfriend ay wala ring balak mag-girlfriend. Bakit pa ako eeffort?
Current mindset ko ngayon:
21 units of acads.
More or less 9 units of Broadguild.
3 units of LCCG.
24 units of family matters.
Sum it all up--- KANGARAGAN= Diane Isabele Padilla Maling.
Hmm…teka…wala nang natirang units for socialization?
E siguro 1 unit ang allotted per subject matter (acads, BG, family and LCCG) ‘yun. A total of 4 units of socialization (gimiks, telebabad, chat, etc.) Syempre all work and no play…not so very me! But--- I have to constantly remind myself na 4 units lang ‘yun at hindi kasama sa aking priorities this AY.
Pero--- wait…paano ang lovelife? I must admit na it is again, ehem, not so very Diane Isabele kapag walang lovelife.
Hay…lovelife, I guess, has to wait. Kumbaga sa enlistment/enrollment, hindi s’ya freshie o graduating para mailagay sa priority list. Disiplina lang ‘yan e. Alam ko kasi na kapag nag-allot ako ng units for it, kakainin niya ang focus ko for other important things, at hindi ko pa kayang I-work out ang attitude ko na ‘yon towards lovelife. Lovelife also requires quite a high rate of emotional involvement…therefore increasing the possibility of emotional risk…which, if not managed properly, can cause damage sa aking buhay. So there. Main point: lovelife=X!
Hindi ko nakikita na I am depriving myself of happiness. All these endeavors that I’m focusing on, and will be focusing on, are the things that I want and I chose. Brutally speaking, wala akong karapatang magreklamo dahil pinili ko ‘to. Pero ‘yun nga, hindi ko naman pagaaksayahan ng panahon at effort kung hindi ko mahal at kung hindi ko gusto ‘yung bagay na ‘yun. At para sa akin (siguro para na rin sa iba), mas mahalaga ang family, acads, church at org (isama na ang friends) kesa sa pagkakaroon ng boyfriend.
Besides--- yung gusto ko namang I-boyfriend ay wala ring balak mag-girlfriend. Bakit pa ako eeffort?
Current mindset ko ngayon:
I’m enjoying my “meantime”--- that period of time between seeking love and finding it. Hence, I’ve decided to take this time to clean out of my head all the crazy notions about love. I’m not looking for one person to love--- I’m not deliberately looking anymore. But my eyes are wide open for many lovable people out there who are equally capable of giving me love. I figured that that when love finally comes, I’d have a better heart to welcome love into if I wasn’t busy insisting on having deep feelings for guys who looked like they could be my boyfriend…
Love is unpredictable, immeasurable, and therefore, fun, exciting and cosmic after all…
--- No Boyfriend Since Birth
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